It's been a long time since I've posted anything here, which does to some degree reflect that I haven't made a lot of progress in the last, ahem, 7 months or so since the last post. Progress has been slow, coming in fits and starts, and it's been a bit of a shock to realize that it's been more than a year now since I started the lessons and that I could have finished them by now.
I don't feel guilty about that, exactly, as I have learned something by doing as much of the Course as I have. But I have started to feel a sense of urgency; that I need to finish this thing. I don't know where that is coming from, but I really started to feel it about a week ago.
A lot has happened in since I last posted—lost a job, got a new one; moved to a new place in a new town. So I have not been at a loss for distractions. For many months after our move, which I found utterly exhausting, I hardly even attempted to pick up the lessons where I'd left off.
But now I'm back. I feel a growing conviction that this is exactly the right thing for me to be doing now. I do not know where it will lead but I feel a growing desire to surrender to the will of God, which I am told is my own will.
I have entered the second review period. Today is Lesson 81. Forgiveness is the key, the key to everything. And it is not just for me alone that I do this work. It is for the whole world. It gets less and less hard for me to believe that this is true.
I am so grateful that this is so.
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